My gratitude for the restoration of my mind to singular wholeness is simply indescribable. I remember that, before the Course In Miracles and Master Teacher came into into my life, I was lost. Entirely lost. Always. I felt so misplaced. I had many moments of visions of truth and revelations for the couple of years before my  awakening, and yet I was still trapped in the aweful situation I was in and could not find a way out. I would literally go out at night and look at the stars and pray: "If there is anyone out there hearing me,  get me out of here..., I want to go home!" I had visions of not being from here, of not belonging here on earth... I had known since I was a kid that there was something so completely and fundamentally wrong with this place, I had always felt misplaced and lost. This only seemed to increase as an adult.

Finally I reached a point where I went down on my knees and prayed, I had exhausted all my resources of hope to go on, I couldn't stand my pain (or anyone elses) for any second longer. Three days after my desperate prayer a guy that I knew called me, and introduced me to teachers of A Course In Miracles from Endeavor Academy in Wisconsin ( where I live now ). At the time I lived close to Berlin in Germany. From the moment that I saw those teachers I had a memory arise in me, that was so old and familiar, so much more certain  and beautiful than anything I had ever experienced in my life.

I was immediately starting to have physical light-experiences. My body was changing in the proximity of these teachers. They were teaching pure Jesus. I had never heard of A Course In Miracles before and probable would not have believed that it came from Jesus from Out of time, if I hadn't been introduced to it by these guys that were obviously transformed by it, and looked so alive and vibrant, unlike anyone I had ever met before.

I knew with complete certainty that I had finally found the exit, the portal, my way out. This was the answer to all my seeking and endless searching since time began. I just knew it! I knew my prayers had been answered. These guys talked about not needing to get old and sick or dying anymore or ever again, about awaking up and going home, about enlightenment, resurrection and ascention. I was blown away and it made more sense to me than anything I had ever heard.

I started doing the workbook lessons of A Course In Miracles right away and read in the text. I was amazed: I could feel Jesus presence with me and my mind started changing. Burdens just dropped off, I experienced a healing so encompassing, I couldn't have dreamed of this being possible...

There is no comparison of how I am now with how my mind was before I awoke. "I was dead and now I am alive" comes the closest in description. Through the application of the workbook lessons of the Course, and the opening of my mind to Jesus' constant guidance and presence with me, in me  and through me, my mind and body have changed completely. I am not the victim of a separate world anymore. The habitual need or ability to get sick and old and die has been undone by the grace of God. Everything that seemed to be out there, outside of me, continually collapses back into my mind, and is healed through the Holy Spirits vision.

And so the grace of God carries me literally every day as the memory of God replaces all darkness in my mind, and my body is an ever transforming vessel of the light of  resurrection. By the grace of God I live in Him....!!!
Thank you, Jesus, my dearest friend.

--by Kira